Thursday, September 1, 2011
Mommy's First Day
Do you remember that "Sunday Sick Feeling"? You know that feeling of anxiety in the very pit of your stomach and you are like "what is wrong with me?" and then you remember that Monday is just a few hours away and you haven't started your homework, it's your first day at a new job, or you are just plain feeling anxious.
I am totally suffering from Sunday Sick Feeling right now. You see tomorrow is a big day I have my first Mommy group play date. I finally bit the bullet and signed up for not one but two mommy meet up groups.
I even signed up to host a play date at my house once a month. (so not like me)
Of course I did this all from the safety of my home without having to go out and make small talk or meet anyone. I keep thinking what if I don't hit it off with anyone... or say what if I say something ridiculous thinking that it is funny and it so is not funny or worst of all what if I like the group and they don't like me or really really worst of all what if our kids don't get along.....
UGH I feel like I am starting my first day at a new job or something. I am even trying to plan my outfit (casual comfort), also should I bring some kind of treat for everyone? Does it have to be healthy or can it be pastries?( like a real treat you look forward to.)
I am going to cause myself to have an ulcer.Who knew that you were going to be put through high school again once you had a child. Although not everyone gets this anxious, I have a few Fab Mommy Friends that can walk into a situation not knowing anyone and end up leaving with everyone loving them and asking when do they get to see them next.... I need to be that Mommy
My goal tomorrow will be to try and be the outgoing Mommy I really want to be and to just be myself. Someone has to like us, right ...?